The Trips Back Home

   This weekend would mark the second time I have come home since I have been in college. It doesn't really feel like a home to me anymore which is weird though. I'm so use to coming into a warm house with the aroma of sweet pumpkin spice from my moms Sensie floating around the air in our small cottage home. I feel as though I am growing up too fast and my life is soon going to be over in a blink of an eye. I don't really enjoy this feeling because I still want my home to feel like well..home.
   It is weird to think how in high school I never was close to anyone, but my close guy friend and training buddy Dallas. When I come home now though it seems like the whole world wants to hang out with me. I don't really understand it and in all honesty I came home for three reasons. One, to see my family and Oksana, my baby sister who is growing like a weed. Two, to see my crazy dogs who I miss so much, and three, to work because I cant afford to attend this school or pay my bills if I don't work.
   I wish I could have the money to do fun things all the time like go out to eat and see movies and go on trips and to water parks in the summer and whatever else kids like to do these days. In all honesty though, I sometimes don't wish I had the money for these things. I would not be as much of a hard working individual if I had life handed to me. Even though it causes much stress in my life, I am learning to handle it. I know I will be rewarded in the future for my hard work.
   In my free time, I like to do free things. When I am home I enjoy watching Netflix with my family or sisters, cook meals or bake desserts, crafts, talking the dogs on a walk or going on a short run as I push my baby sister Oksana in the stroller. I simply love just laying out sometimes too or sitting on the porch with my mom and having funny conversations with her. When I am here what I like to do with my free time is.....lets be serious, I have no free time. Well I have some, but usually I am sleeping because I don't get enough sleep as it is. Waking up at 4:25 everyday sure gets the best of me.
  Overall I just want to say that I miss home. I miss all the free time and seeing my family, dogs, and just laying in my bed back home and cuddling with Maggie, my black pug. I miss being young again and not having a care in the world.  I cannot wait to go home for Thanksgiving break!